listening to 'in heaven' last week, i realized i'm not that kind of fan anymore.

i cannot say that i support them in whatever they're doing. coz i don't.
it's just not the same for me anymore. though i've tried.
i'm just not the kind who just follows blindly.

it's good they're still doing their best. it's good they're still working hard.
but i can't ignore that niggling feeling of disbelieve and disappointment.

coz everytime, this question pops up: "are you truly happy now?"
i just don't get that vibe from them as i did before.