Clumsy LighTing

Inaction = Low self confidence + Self-doubt + Lack of courage + Instable self-esteem + Fear of failure

We were writing CNY greeting cards...

incident 1:
mt (pointing to the chinese words on the card): where's your name?
kin: i dunno how to read wor...

there goes mt's painstaking efforts teaching him how to write his name in Chinese.

incident 2:
he squeezed the "From, Yoke Kin" at the corner, the words going down an invisible slope....
with the comma unrecognisable......

coz he simply doesn't know how to write a comma...

Lol...

some random girl added me on msn. thought it was the E.L.F i befriended on that frenzy day. coz she did say she'll add me on msn.
guess i should've asked for her msn add to right? well......i was too excited to notice, obviously.

thought it was strange when this gal approached. my instincts were right.
no one who adds you on msn asks you how old you are. she's up to sth, obviously.

and whoa...within 5 minutes...she revealed her fox-tail. wtf.
seriously, wtf.

so now they've branched out like this huh? randomly add people hoping they'd stumble upon some gold pot. wth.
it's working somehow, i think. if not, how else are they continuing like this?

seriously, wtf.

now, unless i personally give people my msn and they give me theirs, i won't add an email i don't recognize.

what the hell.

ECM Libra's parking is kinda scary. not enough lights lar, people. put more lights please.
walking from there to college isn't that bad. unless it rains =.='''

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today got luck.
no need to get on the help bus and risk the possibility of crushing my new SJ poster.
managed to reach my car before the sky started pouring heavily and risk getting my SJ poster wet.
^^
thank you lotz, MJia.

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a lorry farted right at my old Kenari's face. wth. i just got my car washed three days ago.
this always happens. right after i got my car washed clean...it rains. it just encourages me to be lazier and not wash my car. wth.
[i think my Kenari is dying slowly. it's giving off signs. wth.]

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got Sandiyao for my thesis co-marker. dunno whether this is a good or bad news. i know naught about his style and qualifications as an evaluator. hope things go well.

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though i don't really have issues with my supervisor, i don't think she's a very good supervisor either. guess i'll have to be more proactive and think of the right questions to ask.
and i'm really scared of her whims. though she said my proposal draft was clear and met her expectations, now i don't know, after listening to others' stories...
i'm afraid of saying it out loud. so i'll just pray hard that i'll overcome this without major trauma.

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no motivation to study whatsoever. especially microecons. and damn...i just remembered that there's a replacement class this Saturday. damn. and i promised piggies that i'm available on that morning.
wait...i still might make it. don't think they'll wanna meet as early as 8am gua...hehe

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love TRAX's Cold Hearted Man (Let You Go). very nice =)

i totally hate it when it attacks.
on totally uncalled for occasions some more.

the first full-blown attack was during class. the second time...was during assignment period. today...during class again.
and the worse was to endure it during lecture. and one which needs full attention and sharp mind at that.
and i being one who sucks at managing pain, felt so miserable, coz i let the pain took over me.
and i guess i looked miserable and very sick too, coz even Dr. H came over and asked if i was okay and if i could sustain the remaining 1-hour class.

of course my immediate reply was i could still handle it. coz i thought i could listen to the class without looking at the slides. for a while, when my headache wasn't throbbing too much, i could.
but i couldn't for the most part after all. coz i ended up dozing for half of the lecture when it's such an important topic, or rather my body took charge and ordered me to sleep. [Dr. H and John, i'm so sorry]

actually for a moment there i doubted my ability to hang on until end of class alert and conscious the whole time. and wondered if i should go home earlier.
but i stayed, coz deep down i hoped that the pain would go away when i know full well that it won't unless i get meself a good sleep and lots of water.
also, i think i stayed because it's Dr. H's class. and i like her class, very much. coz i learn a lot when i'm in one.

now i seriously think that i should've taken the opportunity to go home. coz i think the lights in LH8.5 made it worse as the gagging and headache got worse minute by minute. =.='''

today...i just realized that AE1 and LH8.5's lights are too bright to the degree of possibly blinding people. and watching a movie in AE1 without turning off the lights is a no-no.

i don't know how SLin Yee yee endures the pain month after month.
i admire YLing's willpower in not letting the pain bother her.

even though i'm against taking medications to treat the pain, i have to coz i need my brain to think, coz i need me to function without the pain bothering me. how i wish there's an alternative. coz pain medications will wear off someday, and i don't wanna be dependent on medications.

researchers...can you not find a cure or prevention method for migraine soon enough? [tomorrow, perhaps? okok...i know it's impossible but at least find it quick??]
you'd benefit a lot of people, you know. [me is one......^_^]

until today, i didn't know G Ma started a blog. and a month ago some more.
thanks to my spies, i now know. muahahahahahahaha =p

now, all that's left is Susu, Maria and Bagu. actually, i'm not even sure if they know about this... swt.
maybe they do know. they're just not regulars.
maybe i should ask them directly. someday.

---edit (2 Feb 2010)----

missed out meow there in the "no-blog-yet" category....
inattentive me. =.="