sometimes i wonder

sometimes i wonder whether i take on too much for my own good.
sometimes i wonder whether i expect too much from myself. from others.
sometimes i wonder whether i did enough.
sometimes i wonder whether i did too much.
sometimes i wonder whether i should be more outgoing.
sometimes i wonder whether i should just remain invisible.
sometimes i wonder whether i should just toss everything into the wind and walk away.

sometimes i wonder why i couldn't shed all my fears and walls to reach out and just be.