frustrated

i don't know what's happening with the computer.
after calling the computer guy so many times....repairing so many times...even buying that avr....it still short circuits.

the last time it was running, it blew up and something burned. it hasn't been able to start up again.

do you think i'm not anxious about it? do you think i'm not frustrated about it? do you think i'm not angry about it? do you think i like it a lot to leave it hanging there for a few days longer?

the fact is...i'm so very disappointed and confused right now.
and i'm very much a penny-pincher right now to holding back that call so that you or i don't have to pay another few hundred bucks for the repair.

who knows how much i've spent on that damned computer since i acquired it. when it's not supposed to be like that?

i know it's very rude and disrespectful but don't ask me about it coz i don't know anything. coz i'll just get defensive about it again. though i have no idea why i feel like that.