Gonna take me own sweet time

i understand real well how things can't be rushed.

but they don't.

they think i won't have the motivation if i postpone things a little (a lot, to them) longer.

they think that i'm not taking things seriously.

they think that i'm naive. (well, they're probably right coz i don't know a lot of things)

they think that the majority way is the only way. it isn't.

they think that qualifications are the only way.

they think that things will work out they way they imagine it to be.

they think that crossing the seas in the very near future is the only option for me.

i want to help them understand. but they're not listening. or rather they don't wanna hear about it.

i want to explain...but i don't know how to without getting too excited and too overwhelming for them.

i wish they could set their prejudice and judgments aside and listen first then process.

i wish i have found a way to do handle all the attacks.

i wish i have found my strength, courage, humility, understanding and acceptance to cushion all the arrows that will come my way.

surprisingly though, the one who was most opposing, disapproving and resisting of my choice in the first place, understands most about what i'm doing and what i need to do, and is most accepting.

interesting twist.

at least i have her on my side. and her, though they probably won't take her seriously.