flee

i have the urge to flee. again.

i think it happened around the same time as last year.

getting restless. getting stressed. and it's showing.

i need a new outlet. new hobby maybe.

though i'm coping through baking, and it has helped, on a certain level it's still a burden to me. it would've been fine if i have the kitchen to myself. it would've been fine if i'm the only one eating them. it would've been fine if i don't have such a high standard for food. even though they all taste ok.

the tension headache has been on and off these past week. a parent told me i look tired. i do think i look "grey". my muscles are all tensed up. the hairstylist told me i sound tired.

so what shall i do?
gardening? my mom's taking care of that.
exercise? cycling? i'm still feeling too heavy boned to do that. well, maybe i should just do it, aye?
sewing? again, i might feel pressured.
dancing? expensive.

i don't know...