my fangirlism

it's no secret that i love TVXQ!, Super Junior, KDrama and KPop.
i can even be classified as a KPop-addict.

i read, talk, and watch KPop everyday.
i know it's too much, considering the stuff lining up for me to complete.
but it's one main thing that's keeping me sane these days. the chance to escape from reality and relax.

as addicted as i am to Korean entertainment, i will never understand the craziness of Korean fandom.
ironic isn't it? i'm part of the fandom, yet i'm not one of them.

i will never argue nor "protect" my idols with other people.
i will never queue up overnight to buy tickets to concerts or attend showcases.
i will never send gifts nor letters to my idols.
i will never follow them around just to have a few glances of them.
i will never buy every single merchandise there is of them.
i will never bash other idols or entertainers that appears to rival my idols.
i will never support whatever they do blindly.
i will never dig up whatever personal information there is about them.
i will never stalk them to their doorsteps, or call them up.

i will only read news about them online.
i will only watch clips and videos of them online.
i will only buy merchandise that's worth the money.
i will only go to their concerts provided i have the means and the time allows.
and i support them not only because i like them, but also because i think what they're doing is right and is for the best.

the furthest i've gone to thus far in the history of my KPop fangirlism, is waiting in line for almost 4 hours on the first day of Super Show II live in KL's ticket presale.
and all the while, i was contemplating the rationale for my being there, shaking head on the craziness of Malaysian ELF, and calculating the cost of my actions.

and i think that's the furthest i'll go, ever.