Migraine

i totally hate it when it attacks.
on totally uncalled for occasions some more.

the first full-blown attack was during class. the second time...was during assignment period. today...during class again.
and the worse was to endure it during lecture. and one which needs full attention and sharp mind at that.
and i being one who sucks at managing pain, felt so miserable, coz i let the pain took over me.
and i guess i looked miserable and very sick too, coz even Dr. H came over and asked if i was okay and if i could sustain the remaining 1-hour class.

of course my immediate reply was i could still handle it. coz i thought i could listen to the class without looking at the slides. for a while, when my headache wasn't throbbing too much, i could.
but i couldn't for the most part after all. coz i ended up dozing for half of the lecture when it's such an important topic, or rather my body took charge and ordered me to sleep. [Dr. H and John, i'm so sorry]

actually for a moment there i doubted my ability to hang on until end of class alert and conscious the whole time. and wondered if i should go home earlier.
but i stayed, coz deep down i hoped that the pain would go away when i know full well that it won't unless i get meself a good sleep and lots of water.
also, i think i stayed because it's Dr. H's class. and i like her class, very much. coz i learn a lot when i'm in one.

now i seriously think that i should've taken the opportunity to go home. coz i think the lights in LH8.5 made it worse as the gagging and headache got worse minute by minute. =.='''

today...i just realized that AE1 and LH8.5's lights are too bright to the degree of possibly blinding people. and watching a movie in AE1 without turning off the lights is a no-no.

i don't know how SLin Yee yee endures the pain month after month.
i admire YLing's willpower in not letting the pain bother her.

even though i'm against taking medications to treat the pain, i have to coz i need my brain to think, coz i need me to function without the pain bothering me. how i wish there's an alternative. coz pain medications will wear off someday, and i don't wanna be dependent on medications.

researchers...can you not find a cure or prevention method for migraine soon enough? [tomorrow, perhaps? okok...i know it's impossible but at least find it quick??]
you'd benefit a lot of people, you know. [me is one......^_^]