Packing again

I don't feel like packing.
I don't feel like going back.

But I need to go back.
And I want to go back.

I have to complete my studies. I have to finish writing.
I need more time. But I don't have time.
Going back makes it feel even more real.

I have things I need to do back there.
I have things I want to do back there.
I have things that I can only do back there.

I need to say goodbye again.
I don't have time to meet everyone.
I need to write, especially when the words are coming to me.

I don't like packing.