Shit

哑巴吃黄莲.

Yeah, I shouldn't have agreed.
Should've known that you'll not be able to put aside your "must do-s"
Should've expected that under stress, you'll fall back into the same condition, excuse.

Damn.

I feel bad. But I also feel unjustly blamed.

I know there's sth bothering you. But what is it exactly?
If we find out, will you become better?

Shit. I need some space.