this thing called thesis

i'm having withdrawal symptoms from completing my thesis.

suddenly, i have no idea what to do with my hands. besides cari makan in the form of "lui".

the first thing i clicked when my laptop kicked alive was my thesis document. then i clicked my thesis playlist. and then i clicked the web browser. doing all those useless things that didn't contribute naught to my paper writing but taking my mind off it.

would i go back to the days of preparing, planning, writing and squeezing brain juices for my thesis paper?

never.

it's frustrating. it makes you worry. it tests your patience. it locks you in this tiny little box of mental, physical and emotional torture. it cuts you from the outside world. it cuts you from even yourself.

i don't ever want that life. though i can't guarantee that i won't ever be in that situation again. coz who knows what'll happen in the future. but if i can't avoid it, then at least i know i'll do sth different.

i won't make my days so monotonous. i won't keep myself in my house all day long. i won't sit in front of the computer or journals 24/7. i won't make it the sole purpose for me to live each of my day.

i will live. while not forgetting my responsibility to write a good paper.

now am i satisfied with my paper? hell yeah. 

did i do good enough? hope so.

now...it's all up to JL and FH's hands, minds and mercy.

i can now sleep well.

sweet dreams, everyone =D