emotion regulation

i seriously need emotional management right this moment. well actually...it's more to anger management.

right after this afternoon's paper...knowing that i didn't do as well as i expect i would [my fault really], i went into a depressed mood. no energy. zombie-fied.

even after knowing the fact that i did well for both my assignments did not lift the gloomy cloud hovering above my head.

then came home to a couple of stressors that i seriously wanted to avoid. they're not major. they're actually minor minor trivial stuff. but i got angry nonetheless.

i'm very very thankful to considerations from my family. thank you so so much. god knows i was gonna blow up any second.

well actually...the stress had been building up since this afternoon. don't ask me what or why. let's just say i was storing up something that i should let out but couldn't.
[if i don't do sth about my coping methods...i seriously think i might develop cardiovascular disease someday =.=]

and just a few moments ago...i received some unpleasant but not upsetting news. nothing much really. but i'm going to miss my lil cousin's first ever birthday celebration party because i'm gonna be on a trip with my friends.

to be honest, i only feel regret. no anger, frustration nor sadness whatsoever. oh well...since it's inevitable...no point dwelling, moping and emo-ing about it right?????

but what was super annoying and super angering and super stupid move by some people is......they go and provoke me by saying stuff that sure got me angry now. WTH.

i don't care spit about lunch at Tenji.
i'm not upset about not being there at my lil couz's first ever birthday celebration. though it would've been nice if i could. i totally understand the circumstances and accept it and that's the end of it.

what's with the "u won't like this" and "oh....u'll miss eating sth good"  people???

just let me know what'll happen and that's enough lar!!

whether i whine....i complain....i sulk....i cry or i scream for the lack of opportunity.....it's my damn business!

what the heck.

really......it's really stupid i tell you.

i wasn't even feeling angry nor fired up but now i am.
and i still have to study for my final paper. WTH.

p.s. now i feel better