instinct

instinct. it hasn't failed me too many times to not trust it.

but this time, i chose not to listen to its glaring voice so many many times coz i am afraid of things going wrong and being the brunt of the blame game. yeah..i'm a coward.

at this moment, i am very very tempted to just throw caution to the wind and do what i feel is right. whatever comes my way, i'll accept and embrace it coz ultimately i made the choice.

but the same doesn't apply to other people who are involved. when things go wrong, i'll be the one to blame. and it'll ruin the whole experience. for them and for myself.

if it is something i'm fairly familiar with, then i'll certainly take that leap and just go with the flow. but alas, it isn't.

i want an enjoyable, fun, exciting and happy experience. that's all.

is that even too much to ask?