唔正常

my circadian rhythm is all tossed up and down. mom would say: "你唔正常啊你!!"

starting to feel unhealthy. i'm sleeping later and later everyday (or should i say earlier?). if i hav time, i'll sleep all the way to noon. but i don't usually get that except weekends. plus the fact i haven't been exercising one bit for 3 months. n me skipping breakfast sometimes. n...this is really bad. i just realized i haven't been drinking as much water as i used to. i have gone 6 hours without a drop of water down my throat.

if tht's not unhealthy, i don't know wat is.

these past week with the endless last minute cramming for finals...i regret. i regret putting off revision. i regret deliberately self-handicapping myself. i regret for being that irresponsible.

well...haven't i done the same for every exam and assignment???

n everytime...i'd be very cranky. the combined result of stress and sleep deprivation. n the people who take the brunt of it is usually my family. more so my sis n mom. n i'll regret. again.

such unfilial daughter. well...i've never been an angel of a daughter or sister or friend or anything anyway...

so...it's not stress and sleep deprivation. it's me. my problem.

anyhow...i need to start "fixing" my circadian rhythm. i don't want migraine. i don't want frequent sweaty palms and feet. i don't want queasy stomach.

i want mom to never again say: "你唔正常啊你!!"

well...at least not to me =P